Anti-depressants, Anti-psychotics and mood stabilisers

Update, been on wrong dose of meds, my GP really not happy bunny(a good GP he fixed it fingers crossed) , so hopefully be sorted, no wonder i been feeling so low! 

I am pleased to read that the error in your dose is being rectified Haze. Let's hope that you soon feel the benefit. 

Have a great day.

 x

Thank you :)  x

Hi,

thanks for all the advice, things not great just found out that my dad is seriously ill and his immune system is attacking his body and he is very ill. Just when i think things cannot get any worse, i am fed up with everything, the washing machine decided to break down and my brother had a look at it. told me i was lucky it did not catch fire as the back as full of soot.  car broke down as well. so  i need to find a way of getting my son to school and back again every day til his holidays. meds not working for my back or my depression. 

Hi Katz, How is your dad today?

I am so sorry that he is so poorly. You are really being pushed to the limits. My heart goes out to you, it really does.

I have had those days when everything goes wrong ; my washer too had to be replaced. Why does it seem that just as things appear to be looking up something comes and pulls the rug from under your feet?

Try not to let it get you down too much {I know easier said than done}. Try not also to feel sorry for yourself, don't dwell too long on those "feeling sorry " moments . Just keep chipping away and things will improve slowly but surely.

I hope that your back problems soon improve. I understand how debilitating back problems can be;as I too suffer.

Big hugs for a good day . Take Care. xx

Hi itgetsbetter,

he is feeling ok, he has to start chemotheraphy tablets on monday. he has my son tonight for movie night. but my dad will have to be very careful from now on as colds or flus could make him very sick.  i was at the doctors and she changed the meds and gave me xantax for a few days. Thanks for the advice and talking to me, really appreciate it.

I am so so fed up with everything, why do people pretend to be your friend and then just treat you like shit when you do not do what they want.  They are just so nasty.  I do not normally drink i used to before i had my son. But not only have I got a bad back, depression i also have general and social anxiety. So I do not really go out much but I went out with my friend sarah last weekend and I was so stressed i had one drink but did not feel good. She got upset with me saying i was not trying but I found it very hard to hear what people were saying in the pub with the music and everything. And I was not sure what to talk about but I tried and stayed for 2 hours but that was not good enough for her. she was giving out that i was ruining her night out, she is a mum as well but her partner is with her. I am a single parent I prefer to stay in and watch a good horror or read a book or just do movie night with my son that is what i feel comfortable with.  I do not think I am looking for a man as I have had such horrorible time with my sons father and my 1st boyfriend before him. She rang on thursday giving out and said if i was really her friend i would try harder not to be such a sour bitch and liven up a bit. Then she said we were going out again tonight and i said fine i would try as i did not want her angry with me and giving out and so i agreed to go. so she turned up at my house, my son was with his grandparents all day today helping them and his uncle lay decking and doing other jobs my dad cannot do, now that he is sick so my dad asked if it was ok to relaay on him and he agreed and i think it is good for him to learn how to do things with his uncle and not by my son the whole time.  And he really is enjoying it.

She started to give out about the outfit i had on, it was a black pants and a light blue jumper, but it was not nice enough and i would not attract any attention in it, so i changed into an outfit that she picked, which was a short skirt and a pink blouse and as i also have eczema i cannot wear makeup as it drives it mad, she kept baggering me to at least put on some eyeshadow and lipstick so i did and the eye shadow drove my eyes mad itching.  So we went out to one of the local pubs and she bought the drinks, I normally drink diet coke if I am out with friends and family, and she came back with two bottles of bud, I tried to explain that I could not drink with my tablets, but she said to live a bit. So I had a drink and after about 15 mins started to feel dizzy. I could not hear in the pub as i find them to loud with everyone talking but two lads came up and were talking to us and they seemed nice and bought more drinks and i said i did not want anymore bud but sarah just told the lad to get me one, so he did and i drank it to be nice and mark seemed like a nice guy but the drink made up feel more dizzy and sick and i told sarah i needed to go to the toilet and we went to the rest room and i was sick and sarah went ballistic saying that i was a waste of space that i could not do anything right and that she was fed up trying to help me. So she told me to clean myself up and come back to the table and not to make a fuss and just act normal and not like a fucked up freak that i was with no friends, only people who put up with me out of pity and why did i think i had not seen some of our other friends and she is right i am fucked up and i cannot get anything right. So i cleaned up and went back to the table where she was chatting with the guys and some other girls, mark asked if i was ok and i said yeah no problem and i then went to the bar and got a round of drinks with two for me, bud and diet coke and jack daniels, went back to the table and sarah gave me a look as to say be normal, everyone thanked me for the drinks. So i drank the jack and diet coke first tried to be normal and join in the conversation but i had not a clue what was going on as i was so so dizzy and feeling weird. I then drank the bud and kept trying to be normal and Mark was asking was i sure i was ok, he seemed nice so i kissed him and he pu;lled back, seems i cannot get anything right, he is GAY nothing worng with that except i made a pass at him in front of his boyfriend and the people at the table.I just grabbed my bag and ran out of the pub. 

I am so so stupid, that i could not even tell that he was gay, i used to be able. Sarah is going to go mad when she comes home, so i stopped at the off licence and got some more bud and i am barely able to see the screen every thing is blurry or 2 of but sarah is right i cannot even to something as sinple as a night out. She is better off not being my friend i just embarass everyone and am so stupid i cannot get one simple thing right like going out for a night.  I am starting to think i more of a danger to my son and an embarrassment if i cannot even get going out right without having panic attacks and feeling like my skin is on fire and i am going to jump out of. So glad he cannot see me now, sorry for going on so long i find so hard to talk to people but it is easier just to type it and not have that pressure of seeing the person or persons seeing this. Going to finish the last bud and wait for her to come home and just get over with the shouting. 

Also got bad news at the doctors on thursday i had an mri in may and it has found that i had some sort of lump on my ovary and i need a ultasound but my doctor was trying to get me back in to see my back consultant before july as he is living the hospital at the end of july and she wanted me seen before then as it has been 7 yre to get here and now i have to have this stipid ultrasound first to see is the lump pressing on my spine as if it is they wont operate which is crazy. So i am so fed up with the whole lot,it should nnot be this hard to get something soreted and fixed when you are in pain and it is not getting better. docfors just dont care. got to starting to feel sleepy and sick

Thanks

Katz

My words of advice as an outsider looking in.....ditch Sarah. True friends don't treat you like that. Her treatment/attitude towards you is appalling. As you yourself pointed out, you shouldn't be drinking alcohol when on medications. Your friend should have recognized how unwell the alcohol was making you feel. You don't need people in your life who big them themselves up by knocking you down. You need your self esteem building not knocking. She isn't the type of friend that you need in your life. A true friend doesn't constantly find fault, in fact I wonder why she asked you out if all she wanted was to use you as a lever to meeting other men.

You are better than that, please don't lower yourself just to please others. It was nasty of her to speak on behalf of other people. Ignore her negative comments; she obviously is a sad individual.

When the time is right for you to move on relationship wise, you will know. I am speaking from experience.

Stay clear from alcohol a that can inhibit your reactions/behaviour; as a parent that isn't what you need.

Focus on building yourself up instead of beating yourself up. Look within yourself , dig deep and drag out the positives. Do what makes you happy, small steps. You are not an embarrassment to anyone. Nor are you stupid. You are a lonely lady who at this present moment in time is unwell and struggling.

It is good that you are posting on here. Keep doing that as it is a release valve for you.

Let me know how you are ?

Big hugs x

Take Duloxetine in morning - dont think this is much use really. Have been on 20mg Tamazepam and 45mg (max dose) Mirtazapine for last 4 years, at night - together they give me 7-8 hours sleep although dont stop the nightmares. Was on Quitiapine but it seemed to have no effect. Worst one for me was Olanzapine - I took this first thing in morning. By 10.30am I had to lay my head on kitchen table, it was like I was so drugged up felt like a zombie. Asked them to take me off of that one. Will never take that again. At least I do get a full night sleep, just wish there was something to deal with the flashbacks and nightmares due to childhood traumas, but haven't found anything yet. Anyone had similar experience and found something that was effective, would love to hear from you.

So having a review tomorrow, current anti psy tabs i am on not helping with my mood :/