Fear

Fear has become my main experience of late, ranging from anxiety to sheer terror. At times I disappear into myself and go away at other times I've run away. I get in and out of the bath to feel the warmth on my skin if I get home. I take sleeping tablets to escape, though not for long. I can't connect with things. I don't know how to gauge things anymore. I don't trust my own mind because it's let me down. its difficult to live with.