Depression.

Thanks its just nice to be able to air my feelings with others who know what its like. I will keep you posted on whats happening and going on with me. But Im just annoyed with myself that I find it difficult to cope with at times.

Take care speak soon. xxx

Hello everyone! I'm Pierrem70 and i suffer from major depression, and i am Autistic. I try and help everyone the best i can, sometimes people don't listen to me i feel like people hate me. The only thing that keeps me moving forward with my life, is my friends, family and my Acting careers that i do. I love Acting and im trying to move on with my life, and become an Actor find love and live. The thing is though after i have done something to do with Acting, getting opportunity's just stop for about a few months and i hate that. I can only have 1 good event every few months, the rest mostly i'm on my own :( I don't like change i hate it, I keep trying to push my friends and family away but that won't help solve the problem and i know that now. I'm also having issues with some relatives, they hate me and haven't spoken to me for a year and i haven't done anything wrong.  I just want my life to be sorted and perfect, because now i am 21. Thank you all for listening! 

I am here because I am depressed, might have adhd, social anxiety, and have very little motivation nor faith in the world.

I've just gotten married to a British girl and I'm feeling quite out of place in England. I dropped out of college at 21. My mom died 4 years ago. She was depressed, anorexic, and had adhd. She was severely neglected as a child and went into foster care. She was married to my dad, who was adopted into a ranching family and we never knew his real parents.

Me and my five siblings were forcibly raised to be Mormons in a small town in the middle of nowhere. I don't believe in religion, I don't believe life has a purpose, I'm tired of feeling fed up with society and like we're all being taken advantage of by the corporations. I don't even want to go back to school because I don't want to pay thousands of pounds/dollars.

I tell people that I want to be a primary teacher, but I don't actually feel it is what I want to do. A psychology degree seems like it may be more of something I might prefer, but I don't believe I can motivate myself to put in all the work for the degree and I don't want a 9-5 40 hour per week job. I simply would rather die than work that much my whole life.

I consistently have suicidal thoughts and self doubts. This started after drinking at age 18. Is it normal to have suicidal thoughts and no desire to achieve?

Hi guys, for those suffering now all I can say is keep going. Life continues on no matter how we feel. I've been at the lowest point in my life the last month and really hope never to get that low again. It is hard to find motivation to do stuff isn't it? I mean i do have more better days than I use to thanks to my local mental health team, but still feel like I'm on a knife edge half the time. The anxiety attacks have almost gone which is a big relief, now to just get some get up and go in me and start looking for work. Take care xx

I completely agree with you Bexstar; Life can and does get better, although when you are in the midst of depression it is a hard thing to visualize.  From my own personal experience, I know that I will never, ever feel that low ever again. As the saying goes;

When you hit rock bottom , there is only one way and that is up"

You will know when the time is right for you to work.

Good luck and don't forget to keep chatting on here ; as proof that life does get better.

Big hugs

Julie x

Hi Julie, I don't think I'll ever get to rock bottom again either. I'm kind of on an even keel now, psychiatric appointment next week then hopefully no more home visits needed. Its looking up, hopefully the good days will soon outweigh the bad days. Take care xx

Brilliant news Bexstar. Onward and upward here in for you. Yes, in time the good days will far outweigh the bad/low days. Continue to look forward to a wonderful life. xx 

Hope you feel better soon!  I've been feeling pretty bad lately too.  Hold on to your partner and thank goodness you have one, hold on to those hugs and breathe!!!  You're not alone!!!  

Good morning Cheryl. Hope that today is gentle for you and you are soon in a good place.

Always here to chat/support as I do understand what a dark, lonely, painful ,frightening place the tunnel of depression can be. 

The good thing is that there really is light at the end of the tunnel, it's a case of sticking with it and believing;along with all a lot of self help/professional help.

Julie x

Hi Ive been having a bad week where I lost it in work and just wanted to vanish. On top of that my daughter was expecting twins has lost one and we were in a and e for 7 hours over the weekend because things were not looking good. Thankfully all is well with the baby that remains. So ive had one hell of a week and I don't think I can get to feel anyworse than wondering if my daughter and only grandchild are going to be ok until she has ran full term