I can't do this anymore

I too find it so frustrating to make plans and then not be able to go though with them. the not knowing who or how you will be in the morning when you wake up, the friends who now don't want to even make plans with me cause I have had to cancel so many times. It is so tiring knowing that you were one day in the past you weren't like this you were what they say is normal. It heart breaking and soul destroying

Hey do ski,

Yeh, I know what you mean. I feel like some one tripped a switch and everything changed. Im desperate to be able to be the person I used to be. Feel like I'm grieving for her. It does feel really unfair and sad and it makes me so frustrated and angry that I don't understand. So confusing. 

Hello @Niamh1 thanks for your always kind words! Magicaly I've been doing great this last days, I sometimes really think I might be bipolar, does anyone have some feedback on this? I have days I can't cope with myself like when I wrote the last message, and there arer days when I feel everything is possible!!! and I feel good with myself and happy and don't think about sad things a lot.

kisses and hugs to everyone on this site that really help me a lot each time, specially you @Niamh1 

Awwww :)  Thanks @aria88.  I'm really glad you're having a better few days. x