Well He Did it - And Now I Know What They All Think of Me What's The Point

I posted something about my son a while ago. Basically I came home during the week to find that he had left - all his pets, clothes and belongings gone. No note no text or phone call or anything to tell me that he was going.

I guess a little context is needed - he lived with me. He wanted to move out which I didn't have an objection to but I asked him to give me three months to sort of some legalities. He was going to do this until the mother of his friend he is moving in with said he didn't need to wait and that as long as everyone kept their mouth shut no one would be any the wiser. So he has left - basically they are expecting me to keep quiet so they can get away with something. They want me to lie - so he can live in the flat and be the watch person to her autistic son. I also told him that it was irresponsible to move to the flat with his pet ferrets - they are used to a big and I mean a big cage - now they are living in a rabbit hutch basically. One of them is sick and has cancer - I have to tell him to take the ferret to the vet as he never does or notices that he needs it and have to remind him to fill water bottles as he forgets this too. I was looking for new homes for them before he left as I can't care for them and he won't look after them properly.

This is all making me ill again - I have serious depression which won't ever go it'll only ever be managed. I haven't felt this hopeless and down in a long time. My relationship with my son has deteriorated over the past six months (since he became friends with this boy and start listening to his mother all the time)  I don't know who he is anymore, we don't talk, he even stopped waiting for me at work to go home. He's just a stranger who obviously thinks nothing of me now if he can just leave without even telling me. I don't even know the address.

I'm ringing the RSPCA about the animals because I am not going to have their mistreatment on my hands.

I'm being asked to lie about other things - I just feel completely lost about what to do. I went to the doctors to try and tell her the effect it was having but somehow she thought I was just stressing over his moving out. That isn't it!! I don't seem to be able to get people to understand. If he wants to move out fine - but the way it's happened and what I'm being expected to cover for -  I just feel like screaming. My job isn't going so well lately - I just feel like handing my notice in there. Nothing is going right, people are walking over me, I'm fat and ugly, I can't do anything right or seem to make myself heard and get people to take me seriously, I'm stupid just stupid, I never thought he of all people would treat me like this I feel so betrayed. I just want to go to sleep and not wake up.