I've had enough

Hello @Tizzely,

I am so sorry to hear everything you've been through, but you can't think that 'ending it all' is the solution. 

Have you already tried counseling? Are you seeing someone for your depression or taking medications? 

I advise you to hang on and do some stuff you like to find some happiness, like going to the sea as you say, or doing some sport, if there is one you like. 

Life is too precious just to give up. You have a lot of people that love you and need you, focus on that.

All my thoughts go to you.

Best,

Margarita

Dear Tizzely 

It makes me so sad to hear how low you feel at the moment. You recognised in your post that you are still grieving the loss of your father.  Missing a parent is very real and deep. I've lost my parents too and not everyone will understand how painful that is.  You said you are having counselling but the nights are difficult.  Often when it is dark and quiet and we are alone things can feel much worse, I have felt like that too.  Could you listen to some music on headphones at night that soothes and relaxes you? Smell can also lift our mood, could you make some essential oils you love into a blend and rub them on your feet and around your pillow and inhale their aroma... these are some things that have helped me. More than anything the thing to remember is the people who do care.  When you feel bad, come onto this forum and pour your heart out. We are all here to help each other. 

Big warm hug,

C 

Thank you Margarita and C for your kindness. I felt so alone, feel so alone, I've got a lovely hubby but I'm making him ill. My sister makes me feel stupid and when I know I am going to see her I get really anxious. I knwo I need help more than just the counselling so have a Dr's appointment this afternoon. I want to hurt, really hurt and it scares me. Thank you for your kindness Tizzely x

Hello @Tizzely,

Don't let anyone, not even your sister, make you feel inferior or stupid, you are worth a lot and you have to repeat that to yourself. 

I am glad you went to a Dr, was it ok? How did it go?

Wish you a lovely day,

Margarita