Falseness

You got to keep fighting . I no even getting up and brushing your teeth is like climbing a mountain . Take step by step . The more you dwell on the things you cant do will make you more and more depressed . Its your illness its not you . Take time to get better in yourself. Wearing a mask is exhausting physically a mentally .  

Thank you for the advice Jemzy, I appreciate it. I'll try my best to make time for myself, and not dwell on the fact I wear a mask, it really does conjure a lot of stress just constantly acknowledging it. Normally I do try and occupy myself to no avail but I'll just let my emotions flow instead and de-stress a bit. Then I'll subtly hack away at the mask again, no matter how hard it is and how depressing I come off to the people around me.. How're you anyway? I hope your well being exceeds your good advice:)

I find going upstairs and lying on my bed and watching something helps or Sometimes i sit on the toilet for ages lol as i have a busy house . People say have a nice bath that will help when actually having a bath is such a chore . Im ok got a lot of stress and im trying to break my binge eat get depressed binge more depressed more cycle which is very hard . I have always had more lows than highs with my bipolar but this past month have been better been put on more pills . But things keep happening that give me stress so makes me low .

Yeah sadly i put on a false smile everyday and people just think i am ok. Only true friends know how much i am hurting and they try and help, but its worse at night for me. No one can be there then :/

Its ok to be sad and cry though or be angry etc

Just ride it out, try and remeber you wont feel this way forever :) 

Look after yourself

i know what it's like i put on a false smile everyday to protect my kids and not allow my neighbours child who told me i am her adopted aunty and more like a second mum to her see what's hiding deep down inside and to be honest nobody really knows how i am feeling i have only one true friend who is in fact more like family so i call him my little brother.. but yet everyday is a struggle but i keep fronting the fake smile in front of others but when my kids are in bed and it comes to the evening time sometimes i do feel it very bad and i wind up getting upset...

but i know this won't last forever...

and taking it one day at a time...

keep your head up and never give up...

look after yourself...

God Bless

Thanks you too , keep talking about stuff though :)