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Woodsta1986

27/08/2018 at 22:36

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Ive felt suicidal for years ive got emotional unstable personality disorder and PTSD and depression and i mobed over 6months ago for a new start and ive had no help grom my doctor (g)and i saw a nurse at a menatl health lace and he said PTSD isnt a mental health condition i was doing a poor me and i have to pull her finger out and gwt on with it and i dont have depression because i can laugh and am aware.and then i saw a psychology doctor and she said i had Emotional unstable personality disorder and ive heqrd nothing since and i feel im getting worse and my hole entire family have cut me off and out of their lives like i never existed.and my paranid thoughts and suicidal thoughts are getting worse and worse and im not sleeping am very tempted to turn back to beer to shut my head up.and im finding it harder not to take all the tablets in my house or slit my wrists.

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26/09/2018 at 18:38

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@Woodsta1986 Have you tried to contact the Samaritans again with the details that I gave you? I'm sorry that you are feeling so bad but don't give up hope. You're trying a new medication so that might help. Give Samaritans a call because I know @ursular‍ said that they find calling them very helpful.

Best of luck, you aren't alone.

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Woodsta1986

27/09/2018 at 11:35

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Hi Josephine thank you for relying to me

I e-mailed Samaritan early this morning and again later on this morning i still finding it really hard to go out and talk on the phone.im waiting for my GP to give me my new medication and give me a apointment to talk through my meds.

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27/09/2018 at 18:16

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@Woodsta1986 Yes well take it step by step, at least you're e-mailing them. sometimes asking for help is the hardest part but trust in your GP and don't give up hope.

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28/09/2018 at 11:57

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Hi Josephine thank you for relying to me.i have always felt guilty about for help i think its because when i was very young and even now when ive asked for help my family and so called in-laws and apparent friends made feel so guilty and really bad for asking for help tjey all made me feel like i was in the wrong.and it has put me off completely.the last yime i asked for help i was 8 and i got horrible replys from fam and friends so i decided to suffer silently and bottle everything up because i dont want people to think here we go again.

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28/09/2018 at 12:09

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I have major trust issue's now and i feel that my GP couldnt care less and wont help me and having no kind of therapy has definitely knocked me back.my sleepin pattern is really badcim lucky if i get 3 hours a night and thats restless.and im now drinkin between 5 and 8 pints of beer a night and cutting again.i now care even less about myself than i did before i use to care aboit myslef on a scale of 1 to 10 and 10 being really care about a 2 and that has now gone down to .

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28/09/2018 at 16:36

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@Woodsta1986 Hello,

You shouldn't feel guilty about asking for help. In fact, perhaps you should ring your GP and tell them what you have just told me. If you don't feel strong enough to talk on the phone then they probably have an email address that you could also use.

@richard0804‍ gave you some lovely advice in the other thread, remember you aren't alone and it is good to talk.

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02/10/2018 at 14:33

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Hi Josephine thanks for replying to me sorry about my late reply Im finding really hard to cope with everything it all feels really hard and im almost at the point of giving up.im finding it harder to just go out my house even to the back garden or put the bins out.getting out of bed is a daily struggle i dont see the point in doing anything.it feels like whatever i do goes wrong.my GP couldn't give 2 craps about how i feel or how im coping or what im going through nore does the mental health people.when i work up enough confidence to go out it feels like my head is pounding and my chest feels like its gunna explode and i get well anxious and my paranoia gets worse and says that everyone is watching me and are plotting against me.l then my anger takes over coz i feel weak and feel like a idiot for feeling the way i do and i find it really hard talking in person or phone call to friends and family and my head head said they dont care less why would they care for a usless piece of crap like me i find it hard enough to txt and do emails and trying to call or txt and email people i dont know almost feels impossible.i nearly took all the pills in my house last night im starting to wish i did and all my problems and weaknesses will be over and everyone i know will be 100% happier.and my sleeping has been terrible ive had 4 hours sleep in 2 days so far and ive been drinkin between 8 and 10 pints of beer to shut my head up and be able 2 sleep even if its for 30 mins my PTSD affects me when im asleep as well as when im awake it never goes away its on constantly like a movie on constantl reply.in my opinion it feels and comes across like the NHS is absolutely useless and crap they have no intentions of helping people.the NHS think of people as numbers not humans that need help they couldnt care less they cut cornners any chance they can.in my opinion they are utter garbage.

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