Making waves in my recovery :)

Yes that's it a floatation tank, I honestly couldn't think what that thing was called, they do 2 experiences, they do dark, but they also do 1 with light therapy with coloured lights at this place, so the PCSO tells me, and my autism and sensory soul jumps with delight at the light therapy floatation tank, it sounds uber relaxing, so definitely thinking of giving it a go, I'd love to pick a set of sharps from the needle exchange, just to chase my dad around the room with, as he has a severe phobia of needles, that was a really funny thought 

He he I like that Mantra that is definitely me, anyway I best get my socks and shoes on before my dad picks me up :)

*oodles of love in return, and the regular hugs and squishes*

Stumpy x 

 That post really made me laugh. What a hilarious image that conjured up in my mind. I would actually join you chasing your dad with the biggest syringe I could get my hands on and you wouldn't find it in a sharps box!!!

Check out the websites; I have just asked my son if the one he purchased was from nationwide company but it is  a Manchester based firm .

The light one sounds so relaxing although I would still have a problem with the water. I used to work in a Pre School which did have some children who suffered with autism and remember the delight they experienced with different activities.

Use the mantra daily; it will build up your self esteem; as they say if you say something often enough you will believe it. This is something that really does apply to you Ceri; you are stronger than you give yourself credit for. You go girl.

Have a fun filled Friday. 

As always ; love + hugs coming your way. 

Juliex

I'm glad it made you laugh, the idea of a giant syringe made me do a google and there are some really realistic looking syringe giant props, haha 

I looked at flotation tanks too, I saw some cool looking pictures, makes me more eager to want to try it 

My biggest delight is slow moving/changing colour/sequence lights, although I avoid white, and yellow lights, anything else is generally good, including ultra violet/black light, I've used UV paint under UV tubes at the theatre, I work back stage/doing stage and prop preparation, including set building, as a hobby, for the new year pantomime, usually around the 15th-20th of January, am gonna miss it this year as I'll be in Thailand, Pete my gay friend, and stage manager is really gonna be missing me, theatre and the pace backstage is a thrill and satisfies my need for escape from reality, and helps as a natural way to help control my ADHD on top of my medication

I have lots of sensory lighting, about 8 Lava lamps of various sizes and colours, including one giant Glitter lamp, I have disco bulbs with a 4 way splitter that can create a really cool disco like atmosphere, a water vortex lamp that changes colour, a fiberoptic ufo lamp that changes colour, a mini (about 15cm) fiberoptic Christmas tree that changes between red and blue, a spinning colour changing snake light and flashing colour and sequence changing wand/light sabre, double ended, and a colour changing L.E.D plush mood cushion, I did suggest creating a sensory room at my local Mind, but they really just don't seem bothered, quite a shame really, maybe when I move I'll have a room at my place that is suitable for creating a sensory room 

I'm gonna see if that mantra is available in a picture to add to my positive distractions box, there is lots of fun stuff in there that make me feel happy, the box was something I made at my Mindfulness Course, that I've now attended twice, purely because I liked it so much and the relaxation exercise during it, yet another escape, and of course the good positive company there, I'd do the same course again given the chance, as you learn something new from the other new people attending, and the tutor/lady running it has become a friend and also lives just a 5 minute walk from me, and helps out at the local food bank, somewhere safe I can go sit and chat if needed when open, she looks out for me too, knowing of my sometimes suicidal thoughts, as she lives right by the river bridge, although I've not had those kinda thoughts to jump from there for a while, one of my friends already committed suicide there, he was my age, Nicky, he was my best friend when a toddler, but we lost contact for years, I did see him now and again and then all of a sudden he was gone, it was hard, I did go to his funeral, and had a cuddle with his mum whom I've always loved to pieces, she came round my house when I was 3, I was on the landing at the top of the stairs, I ran to go see her, as I heard her voice, landed at the bottom of the stairs with a broken arm, I didn't feel a thing, almost knocked myself unconscious from hitting my head on the floor inside the front door, I still remember the look on both her and my mums face of horror as my arm was inside out at a weird twisted angle haha, I'm just glad I didn't feel a thing, I was in a cast from mid finger to elbow, the break above the elbow got worse, 2 breaks, so later in a cast from mid finger to shoulder/arm pit, kinda' awkward for a hyperactive 3 year old haha 

*Love, Hugs, and all things Fun*

Stumpy. x 

You do sound in a better place today.

The best type of light for me presently is that of my sunbed. I have been too busy to go on it but I do intend to rectify it asap. Going on it relaxes me . I like having a bit of colour on my skin otherwise I look like a packet of lard....not good.

Your theatre work sounds just up your street.  You are obviously a very talented lady. I do hope that you will continue.

I shouldn't laugh but you sound as accident prone as I do. I once did a little run to get in to the car ,tripped on a slightly raised block paved stone. I fell on to the car door and slid down it. It was a white car that was dirty and so you could clearly see where I had slid down the car.

I had broken my wrist. 

I could write a book on my mishaps.

Hope to hear from you later.

Julie x

Ooh sunbed, everyone screams ahhhh skin cancer, but I have been on one, a few years ago at a friends house, and I have to admit I did really like it, and it lifted my mood lots, most of the time I'm pale, like a snowman, so looking forward to getting some sunshine on my skin whilst in Thailand, maybe one day if I ever have enough space, I'll have a sun bed of my own, I don't trust salons 

My theatre work is perfect, but I don't think I could continue after I move, it's just too far to travel with the late night finishes, and my sister-in-law's step mum also works with us, and if there are any problems between me and my family, including my brother, after reporting my abuse, as we were just children, I'm not sure what he remembers, and if or not he'd take a denial approach, as he's unlikely to want to admit to his partner that it's true, or she will be angry that he allowed my dad near their kids, even if not very often, so really not sure, I don't think it'd feel the same at another theatre, without my gay friend Pete, stage manager who I work along side and we have the most ultimate of laughs, I'm uncomfortable with strangers, and wouldn't know anyone at a theatre closer to my new place, although after a while living there, that will likely change, and there is always the Christmas panto with the drug and alcohol project, and their sets, that I could help with, although theirs tend to be light weight, amateur sets, not full theatrical, usually made of cardboard, but I suppose it could still be fun

Accident prone mishaps always bring a smile to my face, they really can be fun, maybe not always at the time, but definitely afterwards when we look back

I feel kind of bored today, nothing going on, and nowhere to go, although happy so far that my dad is still in bed, weather outside looks drab, foggy and wet, although not raining at the minute, think shops are open today, so could go shopping for snacks today, don't have many snacks laying around, although I do have a few boxes of chocolate from Christmas

*Hugs, and hope today gets better for you*

Stumpy. X