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im ok i say 

shes putting it on they say, there's nothing wrong with her they whisper!

 

if only they new my demons inside

if only they Knew how much i cried.

if only they knew how much i bleed to stop the pain

if only they knew the shame.

 

if only they knew how much i toss and turn at night

if only they knew how hard i fight 

with all the thoughts and emotions 

will i ever see the light???

IF ONLY

 

 

 

I can't see, where is the light? I know it`s here somewhere!

I must tidy up this mess before anyone guesses

Why are there so many doors? they go on forever!

I know what to do! I`ll ask someone to help me!

Maybe this time i can explain?

sorry i don't mean to be like this.

I dont want you to fix me, honestly i just want to hold your hand while i fix myself.

sorry i didn't mean to be so miserable.

why dont the words come out properly?

sorry we didnt work out, i`m not really crazy, its not fair you call me that.

Please dont do that.

please dont say that.

I am trying.

I feel sick.

what if i wasn't here?

sorry we can only sell you this many tablets

sorry we can only sell you this many tablets

hello can i have an ambulance

i know i`ll go out on the bike !

why am i so useless?

what would you want to do that for?

i hardly deserve that!

I miss you dad.

dad! dad! dont do this dad please! 

its ok dad i love you, its over now it cant hurt you any more i`ll look after mom.

I know mom i miss him too.

oh your feeling better? wish i could.

what!!!! but you cant be pregnant !! its eptopic !! termination???

I know you are hurting sweetheart.

me too.

what mom, how can he have cancer aswell?

he`s ok ?

it wont come back will it?

i wonder why i havent caught cancer yet.

whats his name? do you love him? but what about the kids?

refuge? why? i didnt lay a finger on her!!!

where are they?

i miss my babies!!!

no sir i do have their best interests at heart.

i`m so sorry girls i dont think we will ever find out why she did it!

"DAD" 

"YES BABY"

"WHAT YOU DOING, I`M HUNGRY"

"SORRY BABY, JUST THINKING ABOUT STUFF"