Counselling/therapy, medication, real, not real, helpful, not helpful

I guess this is not the right place to post. :(

if you feel like this is helping u, then keep going there is no harm, it can only help, do what u feel is best and not what u hear regarding ways that will help u, its sounds like these sessions where helping u, so my sdvice is to book one again and carry on...:) good luck and keep us posted.

thanks for your time @louise40

hey i have plenty of time for people, i really care for people that are struggling like me and worse because it ruins ur life and id love a world in which no one suffered from these illnesss,keep strong and keep working on what u are doing good luck, im struggling and feel as low as a fox at the minute but u have to keep going and trying.....although its very hard!:)

Hi Cloudatlas

My eldest son had Depression and went to counselling for many weeks.  He has completely turned his life around.  He embraced it and all it could do for him and found the common sense it offered to be really helpful.  I thing every one should go on their own experiences as for everyone it helps there will be another it does not.  My husband for instance, also a depression sufferer, has never been helped by therapy, but having had it for 50 years, he thinks it will be a waste of time before he goes to it, so never embraces it or tries any of the coping skills it tries to teach him.  If you had a rapport with the therapist, this is valuable as this is what happened with my son.  I would certainly recommend staying with it if you feel it helps, and never mind what others say, that was their reality, this is yours!

Suncatcher2015

both my husband and I have joined a support group in our local community , we still have good days & bad but have come to realise there are other people with problems much worse than our own . My husband previously had several sessions with a counsellor on his own & felt great while there but as soon as he left the problems came back . He has really opened up , as have I in our group . But he now cares about and thinks about other members in the group which helps him put his problems into perspective . 

I would like to find a support group locally too TraceyC.  Is this one organised through the NHS or one of the charities, or an independent one please? 

Thanks so much for your words @Suncatcher2015 and @TraceyC . I did go back though the last session was really hard and I felt awful and really stupid. Like I expected too much and I was stupid to expect that things might get easier. However, whilst i didn't say this at the time to the counsellor I then got an email from her saying that she was aware I was struggling in the session and that this was normal and that she welcomed me talking about this in the next session and she suggested I send her an email before I go of things that I feel are important. She made me feel ok about it again. She said she wants to go at my pace. I am so grateful to her and feel surprised that someone is showing such interest. I'm a bit worried that this is some kind of set up. I know that sounds stupid. But I don't know why I see that. Like I know something isn't right. Does this make sense. It feels too intense and that I might make things worse. I don't know. Im not sure I know how to live anymore. How you do it. 

Fecking shit shit shit shit shit. I'm angry. Angry about it all. all of it. 

There are so many variables I don't know where to begin. Yes it's ok that I see the corner of things. The joins like bits of bodies. I didn't ask for it ever and I wouldn't start asking for that. Too many people too many mouths All the fucking time. i tried to sort it out But I didn't ever. I don't care anymore.