Depression

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Edited on 26/11/2015 at 23:53

Hi, i am new to this site and happen to find this on facebook so joined, i dont normally suffer from depression, when i was 15 i met a boy and dated for a short time he was my first love, 6 weeks ago and after 35 years of being apart this guy used me and then threw me away shattering all trust i had built up after being on my own for 13 years since my divorce and at the same time broke my heart, and i fell in to this huge great big black ugly hole and i cant get out of it, i quit going out over the weekend, i dont socialise or talk to friends i literally go to work and back home again to an empty cold house and no one there but me (kids flown the nest). i have no interest in anyone or anything and all i can think of is why me?? he says its because he did not want to date anyone from his past ....then why hook up with me again????? i am not coping at all, but i am still getting up everyday and going to work i have no choice as i have to pay my bills.

so now i can honestly say i understand what depression is.....i still cry but not that much, i feel used, abused and dirty and this has brought back a lot of bad things that happened to me as a kid.....i would welcome some support

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LeeBee

25/11/2015 at 01:28

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No offence but dealing with a bomb and watching your friends blown apart is far worse, Just understand he was an asshole and move on. You deserve it..:)

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Depression https://www.carenity.co.uk/forum/other-discussions/living-with-behavioural-disorders-mental-illne/depression-655 2015-11-25 01:28:02

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25/11/2015 at 17:13

Dear Leebee,

Your right, and thank you i cannot imagine what you have been through, i will now try and channel what you said into my thoughts and i hope it will stop me feeling down about my own situation when you have been through worse.

Depression https://www.carenity.co.uk/forum/other-discussions/living-with-behavioural-disorders-mental-illne/depression-655 2015-11-25 17:13:14

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25/11/2015 at 19:04

Debzee your doing great just getting up for work everyday. Most people that suffer do exactly the same as you and lock them selves away from the outside world, I do it myself. I just long for a cuddle I don't know why I just feel so safe having someone to hug but there lies the big problem, I also live on my own but have found my dog the next best thing.

As for that asshole that broke your heart you have to forget him, now you know what he's really like you CAN do better for yourself. Say to yourself you've grieved for him, time to move on. Don't have anything more to do with him, cut him out of your life no matter how hard that is. If you don't he could hurt you again, trust me I've been there. Even if you have to think of him as all the most horrible things you can, think of it's now time to forget. I find this the worst time of year because you don't want to go any ways but try to have a walk in the daylight for half an hour to an hour and look at things around you, trees, plants animals just to clear your head.

Hope you can get over this painful part in your life,

Stu xx

Depression https://www.carenity.co.uk/forum/other-discussions/living-with-behavioural-disorders-mental-illne/depression-655 2015-11-25 19:04:46

LeeBee

25/11/2015 at 23:41

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Hey Debzee, give me a wonderful smile...:)

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Depression https://www.carenity.co.uk/forum/other-discussions/living-with-behavioural-disorders-mental-illne/depression-655 2015-11-25 23:41:23

LeeBee

25/11/2015 at 23:44

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Feel Great you get rid of an asshole...Hehe

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Depression https://www.carenity.co.uk/forum/other-discussions/living-with-behavioural-disorders-mental-illne/depression-655 2015-11-25 23:44:10

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26/11/2015 at 09:06

Thanks IsItAllWorthIt and LeeBee i did smile when i read your comments and i will make it through this bad trime, thank you for your support and here is my smile back

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26/11/2015 at 12:31

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Hi I'm Iain and been suffering from depression off and on for a number of years now. Currently going through a really bad patch - unemployed! This has, as I call it, opened my Pandora's box of negative thoughts. I have good (not frequent) and bad days. After a discussion with my GP we decided to change my anti-depressants (Fluoxetine 60mg to Mirtazapine 15mg) Weaning myself of the Fluoxetine and started the Mirtazapine. Before a awakened this morning I had what I can only say was a terrible nightmare, ingredients were all the 'horrible' things from my memories. This has set me up for a bad day as I keep having flash backs of the nightmare. I was having bad dreams while on Fluoxetine. However, since I started the Mirtazapine, the dreams are slowly descending into more nightmarish form. When I next contact my GP should I inform her of these nightmares? Thanks for reading.

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Edited on 26/11/2015 at 23:55

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When I next contact my GP should I inform her of these nightmares? Of course you should and trying to fit into a normal world, how are we ever going to help people like ourselves if we box ourselves in? :) Respect Lain.. Or is it Ian?

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Depression https://www.carenity.co.uk/forum/other-discussions/living-with-behavioural-disorders-mental-illne/depression-655 2015-11-26 23:53:36

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