Feel like crap

Hi guys,

I'm just going to go off on one because right now I'm too upset to even know where to start. Everything is too much for me right now in the past month ive gone from being in a stable and happy relationship and being proud of myself after finishing my first year of college with a very good grade, but that's not the case anymore. I lost the guy who I was able to open up to and was the first boyfriend I had told about my past. It broke my heart and I feel like it was the trigger for this relapse I'm now suffering from. I keep trying to stop self harming but sometimes theyre too strong and I cut a little or do a little then go into a frenzy. I've suffered with suicidal thought too and they've caused me to take double and even triple the amount of anti depressants I should be taking but not enough to harm myself. I spent the last few hours of being 17 crying my eyes out and having panic attacks. I feel so alone again and I don't know what to do I feel like ive reached an all time low...

is there someone out there that would be able to listen to me?

Charlotte_Amber there is always someone here to listen to you, If you want to message me or anyone else, feel free, we are always able to help or simply just to listen to you, which sometimes is exactly what you need. I'm 19 so a similar age so I understand perhaps more than people older, so again feel free to message me if you want to xx

I`m a 46 year old bloke who is bringing up two lovely teenage daughters and suffering exactly the same as you. It sounds to me like you need to share EXACTLY how you feel, please take nina`s offer and chat, you certainly are`nt alone.

Your partner needs to make you feel wanted and worthy - you can feel lonelier in a relationship than on your own if you dont have the right support - yes a depressed partner is hard to live with but to me your partner is either fully there for you or not there at all - to my mind it is their weakness not yours

You have to be your own best friend - love yourself - I've been there so many times and I found changing my perspective helps me

Hi Charlotte-Amber, Please don't over medicate. You probably feel like your life is not worth living and you will never be happy ever again. Believe me when I tell you that you will. Your heart must feel like it has been broken in to a 1000 pieces; it is like a bereavement and grief has no expiry date. You are young and you will find true love again.

My marriage broke up after 30 years, We were soul mates , I can't tell you how heartbreaking and totally unbelievable that I felt; this man was my world. I too fell in to the depression and anxiety cycle. I also suffered from panic attacks and suicidal thoughts.

I truly never ever believed that I would ever get out of the dark, lonely ,frightening tunnel of depression. I felt so isolated despite being surrounded by lots of loving family/friends. I am in such a wonderful place in my life and you will too. 

Take time out for you; doing small things that you enjoy. Learn to relax; focus on your breathing when the panic starts to rise. Talk ,talk and talk some more.

Use this group to get you through this difficult time. It will pass; honestly.

Accept and embrace all the help on offer 100%

Take the 2 steps forward , 3 steps back approach. Don't be over critical of yourself and don't over analyze.

Little by little, day by day.

You really can do it. 

Always here if you want to chat/support.

xx

Hey guys,

I feel very down lately. I have a therapist. I am on a load of medications. I was in hospital twice the last couple of weeks looking for more help from my symptoms, especially my depression.

I still feel very down. This morning I felt BAD. I drove out for a coca cola and then later for a coffee. When I got home I felt a bit better.

I play World of Warcraft, which is an online game. It kind of helps me a bit when I'm down. I also watch Big Brother UK now that it is on. I watch the nights previous episode in the morning time if it is on too late.

I don't know what to do a lot of the time. I think I'm struggling with boredom and frustration. I lost my job and all my friends. I lost my career and my livelihood. I try putting up my CV, but nobody wants to employ me.

I feel down and alone, and I struggle a lot.

My therapist says to get distractions to pass the time. I got a few distractions like playing computer games but sometimes i just feel so down I don't feel motivated to do anything. Then, I feel really bad.

Good Morning Andrew .

It is so hard when you are feeling so lethargic/low that you really can't be bothered to get out of bed let alone to do anything positive.  Rest assured that you will never be alone whilst you are on here as you will always find someone willing to chat and support you.

In the depths of my depression, I was unable to sleep due to my frantic mind never settling. I would be up at silly o clock walking my dog. Understandably , the area would be empty which I found to be ideal to bring some sense of calm. I found it hard to concentrate for long periods so watching films or just TV was no good. I used to love reading ,especially before I went to sleep; but I could no longer do this as my mind would wander and I would forget what I had read.

I had to try to do "light" hobbies. Nothing that would send my mind in to chaos . Walking was great as I focused on the flowers instead of the weeds. I started doing crosswords again. I was so pleased with myself when I actually completed one.!!

A massive morale booster despite it being a small task.

Getting out and meeting people is a huge morale booster.

Fill you house with easy listening music.

You really have to delve deep, which is so hard when you really don't want to be bothered.

Getting yourself outside is ideal for everyone, plus it's free. You don't even need to go far but it will eventually help you to get to where you need to be mentally/physically.It will also be releasing your "happy hormones' Another bonus.

It really is all about a "little by little day by day' approach.

I actually did a list of things in my house that I wanted to change/do.

I "really" had to push myself, but it was a great feeling when I had ticked them off; over time naturally.

 You really are going to have to dig deep as no amount of medication or therapists are going to get you to where you need to be ; as they say "There is only 1 person who can help and that is you'

I honestly never thought that I would ever be happy/well again when I was in the dark, lonely, painful, frightening tunnel of depression. It hasn't been easy but with help/patience  from medication, family and friends and a lot of self help I am in such a wonderful place in my life and you can be too.

Force yourself to keep busy. Talking is a great tool to have along with the above so talk, talk and talk some more. This is the ideal place to start.

Always here for support and friendship.

xxx

I feel hurt everyday very lonely jealous cry seeing young couples saw a young couple kissing cant take anymore  i self harmed wish i Hadn't  been  born

Hi jon have you ever heard of the law of attraction? It is all about how we think and feel within ourselves.

A miserable and sad face is not attractive, a jealous or angry face is not attractive either and if we live our lives with that sort of face people will not want to be around us. BUT have you noticed how you feel when someone smiles at you or says nice things, you are naturally drawn to those sort of people, you become attractive, nobody wants to be sad.

Try thinking about how you can look better or be nicer or even just smile more. Help people, smile and be friendly instead of thinking how miserable you feel and you will be amazed at the difference. dont dwell on what you haven't got concentrate on how you can get these things