depression

Blueeyes,

it isn't anything you have to feel bad about, you have taken a massive step to your recovery, it is a hard thing to admit to and that you never wanted to kill yourself, we often feel that we are not worthy, when we are depressed , so we fail to ask for what it is that may help us improve for fear of rejection be it from a Dr, family or Friends, but here you will have people that will be willing to listen to you, many of us have had those thoughts and acted on them.

Write the word anxious in the centre of a piece of paper, and around it reasons you feel that way, be really honest keep going until you have three positive things on it, also do that same for stupid on a second piece of paper.

It sounds simple but it really helps you find what is behind those emotions, you are remarkably strong, you just cant see it right now, those three positive are the things that keep you going, often it is not others care for us that helps us it is our care for others and how they would really feel if they were left behind.

with your story you can help be the light for someone else in the darkness of their journey, so let those blue eyes shine into the future.

Love light and peace x 

I have not got a clue how to deal with my current way of living, I am A Nurse and love looking after others and feel at ease doing this but seem to have a second part to me that at times is ?anxious, have feelings that I don't understand and don't seem to fit in with any scale of depression. Tried anti depressants and they did not help with some of the feelings that I get, Do you have others with similar things happening to them ?

What are those ? Maybe it is something more than depression, please come back to us.

Love light and peace x

Good Evening Everyone,

I know what it's like to want to turn those feelings off. Some days its so crippling (depression and anxiety) that i can not wait to get home and get a couple large glasses of wine down me just to numb the feelings. Some nights I've had to resort to spirits like Gin to get myself to sleep, my mind just running wild. I'm trying to channel it (union work, looking after those less fortunate etc) and i'm on medication but some days it's still crushing. 

I had a bad situation at work that went on 18 months (bullied by two middle aged women, one being my line manager) and management did nothing to support me or to tackle the issue. I fear it's done some permanent, lasting damage. Its also when i started self harming though i never admitted that to management. Admitting i was suicidal was  bad enough and even then they tried to sweep it under the carpet. I'm in a better place now and the alcohol consumption has gone down, but still i have very bad times. I accept i will never be right, (chemical imbalance) but i fear it's gotten so much worse. 

Hi Annalise,

I have had major sleep problems in the past, they are not so bad at the moment, the Dr put me on Zopiclone, but it was leaving me really groggy and I was only allowed it for a few days at a time as it can be addictive.

I now take  half a tablet called Sleep Aid by Kirklands, you can by it from cosco and also on amazon, it is a old fashioned class 1 Anti histamine , it used to be in the Pain killer Syndol, which is why It got taken off the market, and reformulated, as people where taking it for its sedative effect and getting addicted to the Codine in it.

I spoke with my Gp only yesterday, and he agreed it was a better choice to take sleep aid than the prescription ones, it is Doxylamine Succinate, and while it is an OTC medication it is FDA Approved as a sleep aid.

I take half I am asleep within 15/20 minutes and I sleep until I am woken, and feel really refreshed, I take them for a few days when I really need to and it also helps get you body back in a sleep rhythm they cost about £17 for 2 bottles you get 90 in each bottle and you only really need half so it is a really cheap alternative to paying dr's script prices for 7 tablets.

When I was on the Zopiclone I would feel a real need to take one... on these ones I don't get that, it is more of a controlled thought of oh I am really knackered tonight and need a good night sleep, I think I will take half a sleep aid.

look it up it just might help, check with your chemist to see if it will interact with anything you are already taking first, it really transformed my sleep pattern I would have no problem falling asleep, but would wake after about 90 minutes and that would be me, for hour and again when I finally fell asleep again I would wake about 90 minutes later. so was getting 3 to 4 hours broken sleep a night.

love light and peace x